TGIF

Seriously am thankful the weekend is here..Will be doing house visit later,'cause apparently another colleague super lazy to go and just asked me about it. Will do a quick one and off to pick Audi up soon after. This week is great as it's only 3 working days,thanks to LNY holidays. How I wish working days are only 4 times a week..*dream on*

Weekends will be back to our home,to stock up stuffs to bring over to my Grannys'. Been staying over at her place till hubby's course over.Also hopefully able to close deal on the sale of Sengkang house soon. Else I will not continue to take the same agent's service. I really want to move somewhere near my aunts' else I will forever toggle from Sengkang - Woodlands - Pioneer every single working day. Very hectic as I'll be awake from 0420hrs! I'll be staying in on nites that I've classes to attend. At least if I stay in Woodlands area, I can minus off the travelling time and have proper rest. Weekends are short for me,seriously. *sigh*

Too much stuffs been going around in my head. I've come to a decision, while on the way to work,that I've to draw a line across certain things. People that affect my line of work/family/school..I will erase them off my mind (if possible off my life),not worth to let them affect my focus.

I'll help people who are worthy of my assistance and no longer will allow a slightest bit of advantage being taken of me anymore.

"You scratch my back,I'll scratch yours" - this motto is what I'll adopt for now. Had enough of people always taking advantage of us.

Only a handful of my close confidants will understand what I'm saying here.

Having cold feet each time I look at the calendar.I can't imagine being a student again after almost a decade away..the same cold feet when I applied and shortlisted for school interview before acceptance to school. Hubby kept on saying," You sure can,why worry..". *smiles* Thank you for the confidence in me for it brought more fear and pressure to excel and live up to your expectation,hubby. I'll do my best and hope my hubby will be ever positive to support me when I need to.

Gotta work..toodles~~

Super long weekend

Finally had the time to blog..had 5days off from work thanks to Lunar New Year...quality time spent as a family and with my paternal family members. can tell how happy Audi was with his mummy n daddy pampering him..we brought him to his usual swimming sessions,window shopping,watching tv and playing hours on his jumperoo..his laughter,smiles,grins..are priceless...took all the stress away.. It isn't easy to embark into motherhood with a right direction and purpose. Any women out there can give birth to many babies,but what you lay out for your children differs from each other. What you can provide,your vision,goals,dreams..I am very glad that Audi can have what other babies may not have in terms of luxury and exposure. May he be appreciative with us and demure with his peers as he grows up.. I will not spoil him nor will I make him feel incomplete. How my grandma and aunt had taught me and brought me up, I will do the same with my own twist. I will not make him feel my absence when away for work for I will compensate with whatever time I have to spend it with him. Quality vs. quantity here,hehe. Audi turned 7mths yesterday...how fast time flies and it has been a wonderful journey for me. You always have some milestones to look forward to as he grows each month..I'm still waiting for his first tooth to appear and his first words too.. I hate to have to let Audi be in the caregiver's hands,which is one of my aunts. I wish to be the sole caregiver,one fine day,if situation permits. I believe the best educator and nurturer are parents themselves. Then again, in SG where money matters in all aspectS,what choice do I have,right? School starting soon by end January..I may need to schedule my life in a way that work,family and school time are balanced. Needs support from families and those close to me. I'm not a superwoman to handle all by myself..hope all goes well.. :)

Festive Mood

What a series of holiday moments I had been having since given birth to Audi..from maternity leave,clearing of annual leave (still brought forward 11 days to this year totalling to 32 days of AL now), year end public holidays and now CNY!! Tomorrow will be just steamboat and no work! How superb is that?

Brought Audi home to Grannys'. Am staying over at my granny's place till hubby's ROA course is over,by mid Feb..Not easy ya have to travel quite a distance Yishun to Woodlands to Camp near Tuas. I really hope to finally get to move to Woodlands. Sengkang house still looking for buyers as prev buyer backout due to their home loan not approved. Sux.

That aside, after CNY, school term begins..brain kept thinking and planning to segregate my timeline to get things done so all get equal attention from me. If others can do it (despite challenges faced), I can do it too! Determination keeps one moving towards achieving goals. =)

I miss Audi..to be frank, I would rather self-educate him than paying people (half the time,make it most of the time you won't know if what you're paying is worth the effort these people put in) to educate or develope his skills. Unless of course if its beyond my ability. I observed many parents out there, either too kiasu or jump-the-wagon type, pay huge amount for something that all you can actually do is spend the same amount of time with smaller $$ spent and you can get the same output. I will,of course, send him in future for classes so he can have social interaction but not to the extent of taking too much time for classes and little time spent for family and even his own "me-time". *realised Audi loves books,just like his Mummy!*

If I have the means, as I had told hubby numerously, I would want to be SAHM or maybe an entrepenuer mom, so I can put my child as first priority and work comes second,at my own pace. If I have the means lah..am still working on it..waiting for the right moment..

Some things happened lately..not gonna mention here but a few of my close friends knew of this. When people became too much, iron-clawed and disrespect me,my lil family's privacy and also no respect for my child, it's best to sail away. Don't give the blank look when you jolly well manipulate others. And to that man, you shall rot in Hell for good..better not come into my view for I may tempt to slice your throat up..very tempted to do so..i hope someone out there will do it for me indirectly..really.. Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned.

Anger aside..can't wait for tomorrow coz next working day will be Wednesday!! How I wish we only need to work 4 times a week..weekends seem so short lately..

Happy working all!