I don't really know if whatever I'm about to blog have any similarities with anyone out there,I'm juz outlining what I think..we see couples around us,smiling,giggling in happy times..but what happens when things go the other way round?When suddenly both of them seem to have not shared the same path that they used to walk together..and that they seem to have drifted apart,choosing their own paths of life? These can also happen in any relationships for all we can ever know..When the communication is no longer as participative as before..when attention,care & concern subsides..distance between two person shall grow in between..
I have made mistakes in my life,minor or major,each time a mistake is committed,I did nothing to resolve it or prevent it from any repettition..I let it pass and commit the same old mistakes again.Why? It is because I refuse to change,thinking that I am always right..that whatever I did was of no mistakes in the eyes of others...coz I believe that I shouldn't really be bothered about what others might say about me..but then...I forgot that others can be right too,at times..not necessarily its always me..ME PERFECT ALL THE TIME...One of the major mistakes I made was to be mixed up with things that needed my attention most and things that is not a necessity in life...I felt sad when I thought how blind I had been..to have chosen the wrong paths when the lighted one is in front of me..
Friends - I do not blame them for being my friends,I thank them for the friendships they offered me...but I blame myself that I spent too much time with them until I forgot someone who's been more than a friend to me..someone who's been through together during sad & happiness times..someone who's seen me fall and rise again..someone who's been supportive and encouraging in my life..someone who never give up on me...Patience is where this particular someone have taught me...warned me..but I never heeded the advice of this someone..What did I do? I became defiant,defending the friends that I have..often forgotten whose deeds are much greater..To err is human & to forgive is divine..This someone have the divinity that one can ever imagine..each time I commit the same mistakes,seeking forgiveness is my duty,and I took it for granted for each mistakes forgiven...never to learn a lesson out of it..but when things took a great turn..whereby the communication is no longer there,whereby the closeness and warmth that we used to have turns cold,whereby things seems to go wrong all the time..I still did not see the state of the path that we used to lead..are drifting apart greatly..
Appreciation and devotion have long been lost in my mind...and I only realised it when its already too late to turn back to the path we used to lead..I regret but of coz why regret now and not earlier? Something that happens,be it bad or good,has its own reasons..I accept this pain in me,willingly..although it might be too late to save the path that I once used to lead...it taught me a lot..to those out there..please,learn to appreciate your loved ones...be more wary of their needs,their everything..priority plays an important role in decision-making..who's of most needed attention..and when you sense the distance among both of you,close it back,gain back the closeness and warmth before it turns dead cold..and like what this someone kept on reminding me, I shall repeat it again,"Kesilapan semalam belum kita betulkan, dan hari ini kita membuat satu kesilapan, bagaimana dengan esok hari nya?" - past mistakes have not been realised and corrected,today we commit new ones,and how shall we handle mistakes in the near future?? I have realised mine..correcting it now..and I hope to be able to avoid repeating it in the near future..To that someone...I wish that someone can really feel the regrets in me..I know I can't get back the path that I've lost..but I gained a new path..it is the Path of God..I know and I have faith that Allah let things happen for a reason..if that someone is meant to lead the path solely on his own, I shall redha'...but if the path is temporarily out of service and meant to joint back with mine...alhamdulillah..and I hope this time..it shall not be separated anymore..
