Countdown to Aidilfitri..

Been bz lately..went to JB yesterday...had to scout for Mom's stuffs..bought her two anak tudungs,VCD Janji Diana and the cookies she wanted for Aidilfitri. Had my breakfast wit my bro over at MaryBrown's. Wanted to go for Kenny Rogers but changed my mind last minute..the usual fickle me..reached Singapore back at almost 9plus..and watched Janji Diana from Midnite onwards in my room using my Lappy..watched it with my bro,Fian..had a good laugh..but the ending was sad..it is about life of superbike riders..reminds me of my past..my past with my ex-bfs who rides superbikes..and makes me feel angry that urges me to get a bike license..but then.. *looks around* somebody says its not encourageable for me to do so..later accident how..blah..blah blah..so I juz had to dream about having the license yet alone to ride my own superbike..*sigh*

Do I feel the aura for Aidilfitri? Nope..I dun have the great enthusiasm that I used to have..basically due to some reasons that I wish to keep it private..I thought thinking that this might be the last time I'm gonna have a proper Aidilfitri celebration,life would be memorable..memorable indeed it had been that made me frown..cry and brood at certain times..this morning Mom told me..the two set of materials sent for sewing for my baju kurung this Aidilfitri had slight changes..and that is..I get to wear only one of them while the other one is undone..the tailor is my mom's friend,freelancing..Worst still...the baju kurung..fine the cutting but my hands...the hand parts..can fit two hands in one side..i am so sad..i am crying..the one that is done,the kain is thai silk given on my birthday last yr by my fren..and it sux..now i wanted to make sure the other one,silk also,given ny my ex's mom...doesn't go to spoil..else i'll cry man!! i am already fat and it makes me look bloated like i am a mother of two! gosh...i wanna cry out loud!! I gave her my sample kurung for her to follow..can't she simply follow..darn..how unprofessional can one be..*cries*..in my mind was to get new ones but judging at my finances..I can't get any nice ones in Geylang coz they're expensives rite? now I am left with only two clothes..one bought by my mom..the yellow kebaya..also looks goddy..*sigh* fine..no visiting trips then..juz make a point to do visiting on first two days then all the way stay at home with my granny would be better..