Impromptu Outing

Woke up early in the morning..found Esra @ FloatingLilac online at MSN & we chatted as usual..about everything under da sun..needed to collect the brownie cake and get my stationary stuffs..he's sick..I knew that..trying to be understanding (though I nid his presence badly)..decided to leave him alone to rest..Asked Esra out to accompany me..One thing I love about our friendship is..we always make plans to meet up last minute and it works! *winks* As usual she's late..so I got kinda edgy about that coz I hate waiting..janji MELAYU katakan..*shakes head* Aniway..we went around town..had lunch @ Far East..me with my Honey Dew Chicken Noodels..it's yummilicious..we yak about forum & stuffs..politics that's going around..so far..she's another person that I feel most comfy to share my life stories with..I mean apart from what anybody can read here..my heart cries..my joyness..we're like small sis & big sis,rite?

Mostly we discussed about her upcoming engagement..yesterday her guy's parents came over to discuss the matter..she'll be somebody's fiance towards end of January..congrats sista! So we were discussing what gifts to get and stuffs..wedding planning..apparently I told her not to splurge much on engagement coz you can definitely splurge lots on the wedding itself..and so I told her..if it's me..I'd ask for a ring..and then maybe a handphone perhaps? *giggles* I hate fruits..so maybe chocolates for a change? Hers will be a private event..juz his & her parents only..no relatives invovle if not mistaken..that is good..like what the saying goes,"Rahsiakan pertunangan,hebohkan perkahwinan" Seems like we share the same brains,eh sis? *hugs* Hope all goes well for you..

I feel the presence of fear in me..fear of losing the one we love..I love him with all my heart,inside out..I'd do anything in the name of love..I seek Allah's blessings..I seek HIS guidance..to give me patience in whatever situation that occurs in this relationship..times can be tough in the beginning..to test our endurance..I've learnt my lesson...and I dun wish to make the same mistake again..Insyallah...I have 48hrs to go before a new semester begins..I have to adjust my nocturnal life..sleep early and be mentally prepared for upcoming stress and surprises..five more months to go before my birthday in May 2004..another year added on to my age..Looking back at my past..I've made friends & foes..looking at what's in my hands..I thank HIM..whatever that's past,teaches me to move on and face the future..whatever's present tells me to carry on living and care for it before it's gone..making the most of our lives..with happiness is a gift that anyone can have..I have you..a gift from HIM..I treasure you,I love you...I care for you..it does matters to know if you love or care or treasure me as much as I do...but feelings is something we can force on..patience is the word..I shall be here...waiting..till another happiness that i've hoped for..comes true..Insyallah..that I pray for everyday in my life..
"Ya Rabbi, Ku mohon rahmatMu,tabahkanlah hati hambaMu ini menempuh dugaan yang mendatang..Perkenankanlah doaku seharian..Hijabkanlah diriku dengan kasih sayangMu..Berikanlah kebahagiaan buat kami berdua..berikanlah yang terbaik dan jauhilah kami dari perkara yang tidak diingini..Amin.."