Something To Ponder On...

I was over @ my granny's..watched Suria & it featured "Neraca Perkahwinan" - Hellish Marriage i shall directly translate..if previous "Rahsia Perkahwinan" - Secrets of Marriage refers to the ways one can find to a harmonious married life..the other one is about the downside of marriage lives in Malay/Muslim community in Spore..I've read about the reviews in the papers and seen the trailers..it shows real life cases handled by Syariah court..I guess mostly on young couples below 30...and as early as early twenties..I've worked with MUIS before..read a number of cases..I've seen people rise & fall in their marriages, often part ways..some didn't even give their marriage another chance to build up..*sigh* guess it's not easy to build up a blissful marriage but to break it is much easier though..that's why now they came up with pre-marital courses and post-marital ones too..to prepare and to nurture the closeness of two lives who promised to be by each other's side for life..I will not miss this serials...starting this Thursday @ 08:30pm if not mistaken..what I've learnt from Rahsia Perkahwinan are tips for me in future..and what I shall view in this coming drama are lessons for me to try avoid any mistakes when I get married one day..

Seriously, I actually fear marriage..I fear that it'll not last..fear that if I hadn't make any mistakes, the other party will or maybe both does..rather than holding a divorcee title,I'd rather have the spinster instead..come to think of it..all these are pre-destined by Allah..no matter how much fear I have..I have faith in Allah that HE'll protect those who'll never forget HIM..Insyallah..and for that..I've always prayed to be given not the best but enough for both of us to lead a blessed life under HIS care...Insyallah,Amin..I'm done with cleaning my room..it's spacious now..tomorrow shall awake by 5AM..after Subuh prayers,shall be out to grab the 969 bus..before it's too late..I hate bus rides!! Met him early afternoon to return his keys..had lunch together..a great big hug..it saddens me when he said,"Look at me all you can..coz later you might not get the chance to see me.."...I wanna tear up but I held it back..I have to be strong..no, I hope he's not leaving me..our commitments made us apart..but Allah is here for us..I have faith in Allah that HE'll take care of everything..and that no matter how busy we can be..I shall pray that Allah shall care for him always..dun worry dear..you're engraved in my heart..if we can't get in touch much through phone or emails..we can get in touch through Allah..HE'll listen to us if we never forget and have faith in HIM..this I hope he can ever know from me..that is..my first ever love is for Allah and secondly is his...

Prayers For Tonite:
"Dear Allah, give me the best in my life and his..care him as much as you care for me..keep us away from evil eyes and most importantly keep our faiths stronger towards you..Amin.."