Finally I had submitted my program to LengLeng...*phew* aniway tomorrow my lecturer will be seeing us at 11AM..and I hope he brings good news for all of us..i dun wanna be reprimanded for my MCs...I was told that tomorrow, Steven,my manager, would like to discuss a new project with me..in which I hope it will be an easy one for I have a month plus only to be spared...by the way, while in the office, I realised the CEO went around to check on the staffs and I was on the ICQ!! I hope he wun mark me in his complain lists..
Feeling so lethargic after late night sleeps..I told Kash of my hardships and she told me to talk it out with Steven tomorrow in a nice manner...I hope I have the courage to say wat is in my heart...Seems like Kyu is left with his documentation while I am done with mine..I hope all is well...What have I learnt so far in this internship? I learnt that the environment in TP is way much different in working life..I am independent,with nobody to query about when in doubt,source out for resources on my own..but thank God..I somehow managed to move through the hurdle..without seeking any help...not even from Hazrul..my good fren whom offered to help me..That is why there's a saying that goes like "When there's a will,there's a way."
For now, I am looking forward to the holidays, to relaxed my mind off all the stresses I had acquired all these while...I wanted to go somewhere where nobody knows me..and I dun see or bump into people that I know of..where else but back to Selangor or Malacca?? I have to ask Mama to arrange for my arrival there..how long? I planned to be there for as long as I can..I nid to be alone maybe..coz the last time I went there...my mind went relaxed..I never thought of all the problems I had..and even if I did,I managed to sort it out nicely..Maybe during the holidays till Hari Raya..I wanna work..I want to save up some money..in any case that I might need it..Seems like kak Nor & abg Wan wanted to hire me to do some stuffs in their IT business..it all depends on me,if I want to work with them...but thinking back..I hate to have anything to do with IT..i mean i dun mind doing designing and stuffs but not programming..I'm sick and tired...gimme a break..ehehee...maybe I might as well start to brainstorm for a wedding-theme site for my fren,Ruby,who's a wedding planner cum wedding cake baker..coz she's booking me as her webmaster for her site,insyallah.. dun ask me how much I charge for I do it to add on to my portfolio..not too much but juz enuff to payoff the time i put in to make her site worthwhile..
Someone I knew...talked about life...what is life? Life is given by HIM..for humans to live and move around on Earth, with a purpose..to prove what the ROH had said in HEAVEN is the truth..I remembered this incident told by my religious teacher(Ustadz). He told us that our souls or ROH, live in HEAVEN,always claim kesetiaan..taat pada Allah SWT..dan Allah ingin roh-roh itu membuktikan betapa taat dan cinta mereka kepada Allah, dan menurunkan mereka ke dunia sebagai mahluk bernama manusia. Dunia inilah tempat ujian para roh-roh, untuk membuktikan apa yang dilafazkan di syurga itu adalah kebenaran..Memang sewaktu di syurga mereka taat dan setia,cinta pada Allah akan tetapi bila di dunia, bercampur aduk dengan syaitan...sudah pasti sukar untuk menepati apa yang telah dilafazkan..Jadi tujuan kita hidup di dunia adalah untuk membuktikan betapa cinta dan taatnya kita pada Allah,betapa kita kagum dengan ciptaanNYA..keindahan alam sekitar dan memanfaatkan kehidupan kita dengan perkara yang berfaedah,di dunia dan di akhirat..I am no perfect one..but we as humans, with souls that have once lived in HEAVEN, are given the chance to live a life dan sepatutnya dimanfaatkan ke jalan yang diredhai Allah..Jalan manakah itu? Perjalanan hidup yang ditetapkan oleh Allah sepertimana yang difirmankan di dalam Al-Quran..benar kata Ustadz..mereka yang berpandukan Al-Quran, insyallah tidak akan terpesong,asalkan tidak berguru pada syaitan.
Berapa banyak manusia yang syukur dengan kehidupan mereka kini? Adakalanya kita sering mengeluh dengan kehidupan yang kita jalani..seakan kita menyesal dilahirkan didunia..no doubt suatu masa dahulu aku merasai sedemikian.. tetapi setelah difikirkan..seakan tidak syukur dengan peluang yang diberi Allah untuk hidup ke dunia ini..dengan matlamat untuk menuju ke arah yang diredhainya...kini aku bersyukur setiap kali bangun pagi,kerana masih bernyawa untuk meneruskan hidup..bersyukur dengan apa yang aku raih selama ini dan akhir sekali bersyukur kerana mempunyai insan-insan yang tidak putus asa memberi kesedaran dan nasihat setiap kali haluan hidupku tidak tentu arah..kehidupan yang Allah kurniakan kepada manusia tidak akan memberi kebahagiaan pada diri kita melainkan kita mula bersyukur kepadaNYA..perjalanan hidupku masih jauh..mungkin tidak..kerana ajal maut ditentukan oleh Allah..yang penting adalah terus menginsafi diri,kesedaran betapa daif diri ini disisi Illahi pasti tidak akan membuat diri kita sombong dan riak..instead kita akan terus bersyukur kerana peluang kehidupan ini diteruskan hari demi hari..
