Boredom and a shotgun.
Anesthetics, postmortem,
Can't keep the bug out-
of my head.
No time to rest
in this hammock,
this fishnet love affair.
I am losing my hair.
Everywhere some cancer,
some quick witty answer,
to my disease, my disease,
not yours, never yours.
Slobber til slumber,
and dreary of-
boredom and a shotgun.
A long shot from home,
A brainless Poem......
I don't want this pain anymore
Whoever wants it can have it
It is on sale
It will only cost you your happieness
It is still very fresh
Not even a week old
I will throw in the leftovers from last time
I will warn you though
It is not for the suicidal
It is not for the already hurt
But it is for those who are curious
Curious about how it feels to be hurt this bad
It is for the one who has never experienced it
So here it is for you
Take it or leave it
This won't be a once in a life-time offer
So come back when ever you want to know how i feel
My pain for sale
I stand before you
head lowered,
eyes all cried out
Holding pieces of
my torn,
shattered,
bruised,
...heart...
asking you...for a chance
All i need is the...T.R.U.T.H
You've kept me in Y.O.U.R world for so long
I dont know what is...REAL...anymore
I'm...L...O...S...T
T.I.R.E.D,
.........S..C..A..R..E..D,
...C....R....Y....I....N....G,
I need you, more than anything
Will you be there for me?
Or will you let me...F
..........................A
..........................L
..........................L
..........................?
Will you keep me locked in my darkness
Of...tears
and
.....lost souls?
Will you give me some hope?
Some shred of anything that means you still...love...me
Or have you decided that
I'm not good enough for your love.
Will you...P..U..S..H...me out of your way as you move on...
...selfishly...
eager...to be rid of my depressed love
Please, tell me what to do,
No matter how much i will hurt,
please dont...lie to me anymore
In my dark meaningless existance
I've loved you to my fullest
But my heart have been hurt
and
...damaged to the point of beyond repair
by your...so-called...L..O..V..E...
Tell me how to ESCAPE,
Tell me how to get out
I know that you dont love me
And i know that you never will
I've fooled myself,
I've been in your world for too long
Once again i'm...L.........O...........S.............T
H.U.R.T.I.N.G,
picking up my shattered heart
well, the few pieces i have left
You still hold broken bits of my heart in your hand
That is where you hold my love,
not in your heart but in your fist,
ready to discard like trash
I try to stop you
but you just laugh in my face
Saying "FOOLYOUDON'TDESERVETHISKINDOFLOVE!"
The one person who means the world to me
The one person I love more than anything
The one person I will always love
How...do...i...fall...out...of...love....with....you?
I've never think how to,
I've never even tried,
I don't ever want to wish,
I don't even want to dare,
Because
In the end,
I WILL ALWAYS...........
.................................LOVE..YOU.......
