Mom's gonna attend a wedding..I'll be off to my granny's with Fian..my aunties are coming back from KL today..so I shall see what have they bought for me..chocs maybe as usual? *salivates*..maybe tonite I'll try to clean up the mess in ma room..then I'll list down the stationaries needed..*counts* gosh..I dun think I can buy all..have to set aside my hp bills,my internet bills..now I've only got say 200plus in my account..*sobs* aren't I one poor gal? dad juz asked when's ma allowance..goodness..dun tell me I've got to support myself again and have to give to them..I can't..I mean..I nid to save up..for...well for anything that might come handy anytime..but I am juz too scared to voice out to my parents..I mean..I dun even dare ask anything from them..I never do...well..somehow..I have to but I dun dare..I mean if they ever dun agree to help me..I'm gonna be sad and cry..yea..the crybaby me..
Had a chance to chat with Esra @ Lilac..well..she's been a good fren..knew her from forum..then continue to blog then offline friendship...news of her getting engage next month January..is sooo kewl..I mean both of us love to meddle in our life stories so her news is juz a great thing to me..somehow..made me kept on thinking about myself..I'm tired of relationship..I juz want to stick to the conservative way of a relationship whereby, courtship starts after marriage..that'll would be for the better..In my case, i would prefer to be engaged, to know him better..isn't dat so sweet..mcm org dulu2? but of coz takleh jumpa selalu n stuffs..but the thrills are there,right? *smiles* maybe aku ni kuno..Esra..kau jgn ketawakan aku eh..pls..yea lah kau nanti sakat aku ngn makcik2 yang bawak plastik beg merah mcm time aku tunggu kau pat geylang tu..kenangan seh...*giggles*
I already did my counting..I mean..if I managed to get Papa to agree at least set aside $150-$200 for my school transport to & fro...at least I can have a saving of $200-$300/mth aside for..well..I dunno for wat ah..maybe for my marriage or something *as if I am getting married*..hehe..tat would mean I can't buy anything for myself like clothes and stuffslah...got to lock my shopaholic needs..but its ok I guess..that'll be fine..but if Papa dun agree..erm..wat can I do? I'll get my granny to nag at him I mean..my granny loves me a lot and she wouldn't wanna see me sad right? Let's juz hope the first plan works..*prays hard* I have exactly 6months before I'm off..it scares me coz I'll be away from people that I love..my granny..my frens and most importantly awak, my dear itichibummie..I tak tau how to make it thru but I guess I'll have to..skarang jek ngah training nie..*sighs* OKlah..nari tot nak slouch kat uma nenek tgk DVD..anitink newsy..I'll blog wen back..otherwise..juz call me or something..love u peepz..have a great Sunday..*muaks*
edit : Btw, I saw this at my fren's site, Hazrul, and i wanna quote part of it..the rest, do go there and read up..its good..
I understand how Haz felt coz when he's down with his past..I was there..to hear it all out..engagement is not a game..it is a time to realli understand and learn to accept differences and come to one common goal..that is two heart..two worlds..become one...
