Had ma bathe juz now..refreshing..watched Neraca Perkahwinan yesterday..it's about family violence..first case,the wife had mental problems due to hubby's violence..this scares me..I mean seeing the re-enactment brings back my darkest memories..the times when I was physically abused..sometimes we can't juz blame the person for sticking to abusive partners..it's either they've got no choice or they love their partner so much that they have hope for them to mend their mistakes..often ended up either like a pulp or vege..luckily I am strong enuff not to have a sad ending..arwahnye Ashiq..always remembered in my mind..he was firstly a nice and loving person..I feel so secured to be by his side..but suddenly things happen the other way round..when time passes by..he turns posessive..why posessive was because of my circle of guy friends..it's a norm when you got to know the person..they'd claim they won't be so over jealous when you're with your opposite sex of friends..but once the love grew..the jealousy at times can overcome usand leads to violence? enuff said of this..he's not here anymore..may Allah forgive his mistakes over me..I hope he can have a good rest up there..I might be angry when I recall those bad times but being soft at heart..I forgive u..Al-fatihah..People makes mistakes and to forgive is divine..from the show yesterday..it showed that if only the wife didn't answer back to the hubby's ramblings (in which is unlikely)..it could somehow avoid any abuse in the family..but it's truelah..people have patience..when being scolded n stuffs..keeping quiet out of respect and scared soon will turn out to be bold and brave..rebuttal will only be the defence any ladies can do..seorang isteri itu lemah dan tak berdaya nak melawan balik..dia meminta perlindungan dari seorang lelaki bernama suami..jadi kalau seorang suami sudah menangani isterinya..sudah tentu hormat dan sayang sudah tiada lagi..
I hope in future if I ever settle down..I will try my best to salvage any cracks in the marriage..yes,when I have problems, I do confide in friends and closes cuzzins..but once married, I have to learn how to keep it within me coz another factor of cracked marriages is..problems within the house is shared with outsiders..often causing third party involvement and that wun lead to a nice ending in the end,rite? *naudzubillah* I am missing him..does he misses me too? Only Allah knows..no matter how busy we are..I believe,given 24hours,and with a strong will, my time for him,even a simple hello and goodnite means a lot to me..Today is friday,he's gonna be going for Friday prayers,Insyallah..May Allah brings him back safely to & fro along his journey to the mosque..Hari Jumaat ada banyak sejarahnya..dari itu, marilah kita bersama-sama berdzikrullah memohon manfaat dari-NYA..insyallah..amin..
Love..Life..Very Special..
