Monday - Meetings & Work..work..work..

Gosh, woke up with a splitting headache..had a good chat with sis Herda! *winks* Have yet to do any development in my databases..so I'm expecting cross faces among my project team members. *giggles* I love my new hair now..kept on combing and seeing myself in da mirror..vain? Haha..coz soon..in less than 4months, I'll have to cut it short and I was thinking of Armani..yea..the guy's style..better no need to worry if my hair's haywire..aniway..juz a note in my life that I wanted to keep track..I did this once before, kicking two of my best friend during high school days, outta my life coz they ain't my best friends animore..what they did? Practically due to jealousy..they started out rumours to others and got me pissed off and I tink that's not a good way of being friends..and now..years later..I decided to kick one friend outta my life..a total X on his face..yes, it's a HE. I offer a friendship, and can't even abide to it..call me vulgarities and stuffs..do it..I dun wish to do same thing to you..it'll onli make me the same level of shit as you..so there it goes, get out of my life as a fren,confidante and totally everything..dun call me cruel or whatever..I think I've tolerated somehow with the EGO in him..Yes, I am a lady but with my own set of minds...he doesn't have to curse me and stuffs..as long as whatever I'm doing is best for my life, who is he to force me to accept his thinking and wishes? *rolls eyes* Practically I am kinda much better on my own..I can crazy and sad but I manage to hold on before I crumble..thanks to Allah for all these..I love you, Allah,really without HIS love and blessing, I won't be here..

Hazrul, my long-time best friend, had this quiz..so I'm gonna have mine placed here..ehhe..

1. Single or taken?

Single..hmm how do you term taken..has anybody taken over me? I dun think so..

2. Describe yourself in one word?
Busy..Always..

3. What's the first thing you do when you
wake up?

Open my eyes and said,"Ya Allah, late again.." for my morning prayers.Almost close to sunrise.

4. What's the last thing you do before you
go to bed?

Drink plain water, facial nite cream & stuffs, bedtime prayers..

5. Something about you that you're proud of ?

That I'm the pearl of my granny's life...there are others but better to keep and answered if asked personally...

6. Are you in love?

You mean, NOW? I WAS in love..with a human...but my forever love will be Allah as always.. *smiles*

7. What's your mobile number?

You're not gonna call, aren't you? Well starts with digit 9 and the rest figure it out..

8. Are you happy?

Happy..I don't know..I can smile and laugh outside but inside only God knows..

9. Why?

Hmm..I dun wish to think of it..it doesn't really matter aniway..

10. What is the most important material object you possess?

Only one object isn't it? My necklace, family heirloom..it tell what I'm worth of..

Had a phonecall from CPC @ CMPB..I've overlooked at their letter regarding the indebtness form I've to declare...over than 3weeks so I juz said I forgot about it..tomorrow morning at 9AM..yea man..I've to go all the way to sign that blahdy form..*sigh* I hate to go there..I mean its all the way up in the morning..darn...haizz..nevermind..my fault coz I've overlooked..toodles..got a meeting at 2pm until dunno what time with my team..

I have this situation at the forum that I frequent always..this particular Guest post as follows :
Hi semua...

Kita ni nak minta pendapat korang lah.Ive known this guy for about a year.I pun suka kat guy nie.So i pergi bilang this guy that i got a crush on him.Initially he wanted to give me a chance...and told me to take things step by step.After several months...i asked him how's our friendship...i told him "Orang suka kat dier..dia pulak tak nak".Then he told me bukan dia tak nak cuma dia nak concentrate on his job.He told me not to mengharap sangat...kalau ada jodoh adalah...

So im thinking whether i should keep my feelings for him or juz forget him? I would still consider him as a fren

Well..what do I do..hmm seems familiar but hey, I didn't post that,k? but the difference is this lady said it's a crush..so a crush is not meant as love so it's a different story..Hmm..but once it occured to me..if the guy says one thing and then another..I think he's a bloody coward or there's a big problem in his head..What a way to say to concentrate with the job..I mean does that means he's gonna work 24/7? What about future? And even told dun expect so much..that means he's bo-chap..i mean such guys..at times can't even tell someone who really love him and some one who doesn't..*rolls eyes* whatever..all I advised this lady was to juz take things as how he took it..dun limit herself to this guy onli...if he calls, you talk otherwise, juz heck care..as for me..I've done my best and if it's not appreciated..so be it..I'm still here..but not sure for how long..once I've decided to get it out of my life..I guess too late to say, " I didn't realise blah..blah..." I'd juz put on my deaf ears..sometimes some people juz dun realise the worthiness of others until they totally walk out of your live..so..learn to open up your hearts before its too late coz time and tide waits for no man...really..But aniway my real response to her was like this lah..in a softer node..i dun wan to make her feel more remorseful like what I did..so read on..

jgnlah terlalu mengharapkan sangat..memang kadangkala perasaan cinta itu lahir dan seterus-menerus kita menaruh harapan pada dia..so in ur case..since dia sendiri nak take things one at a time..then don't panic..u also take things at ur own pace..boleh berbicara mcm biasa...

no problem..dan alasan dia nak build n concentrate karier dia, biarkan dia kejarkan karier dia krana if i in his shoes, tanpa karier yang mantap..payah nak bina keluarga,kan? percayakah anda pada jodoh yang ditetapkan Illahi? Kalau ya, dun wori much, juz mohon pada Allah agar perkenalan anda diberkati n leave the rest to HIM..

at the same time dun limit ur frenships to him onli sebab lom ada kepastian dia akan membalas cinta awak..so keep on going making FRENS ...