At times, things juz dun happen as you want them to be..what do you do? Live with it..accept it as it is..that's what I do..I decided to have friends around me..better like that..no commitments as in who come's first..who should be given priority to get my attention..I wish to be committed but then looking at the hurts that will be vulnerable to me..I decided to step back..numbness is what I can say how I feel..love..I can't love the way I used to..coz when I do..somewhere somehow people juz hurt me unknowingly..so it's best not to say love..tomorrow's V-day..hope all those couples out there are smiling...me? I smile coz I have friends around me..be it men or women..they are my friends..
Got a phonecall at 6:30AM by my best of fren since young..she called saying her cuzzin got preggie n she nids advice from me..gosh..I guess all counsellors out there..dun do such services early in the morning,rite? So as a good fren, I ask her to call me..but somehow I managed to tap that its not her cuzzin but herself facing the problems..I waited till she admit it to me coz I know she would..we've known each other so much,like sisters, so I knew it..gosh..she's so worried sick..I understand her situation..the thing is..she & her partner were thinking how come she's preggie coz both of them knew they didn't let the spermatoza in her womb..hey..let's get this rite..doesn't mean it's not ejaculated within the womb area, you won't get preggie..heard of pre-ejaculation? as long as you do not have protected sex, it's possible to happen,rite? So there I am, whatever I knew, I advised her.. My distant cuzzie got preggie before..and good enuff the mom is understanding and I learnt some ways to handle the situation from them..so there you go, I advised her what to do..and never to panic..I hope all is well..for her..why can't she juz get married? She's not prepared yet..but I hope..this teaches her a lesson of course..worst still..the guy's now trying to distant away from her..fuck him! I hate such motherfucking guys..they juz knew how to fuck around and not be there for here..I pity those ladies who share such fate..*sigh* I knew its not rite to say such vulgarities especially on Fridays...but..I juz hate the matter that guys can be so fucking irresponsible..yea man..we ladies tend to termakan pujuk lelaki coz we are weak..but darn guyz can be so damn cunning to overtake the weakness in us..I hope my dear fren learns her lesson so well..
Love - nowadays its always associated with sex.. you love a person for what he or she is or because of sex?? Sometimes people juz can't diffrentiate between what's love & lust?? I seen people who think they love but actually they lust for something out of their partners..lust is an evil thing..when you love the person for their boobies or any of such sorts...I guess I'd rather them to think back what is their meaning of love..my meaning of love? dun ask coz I dun wish to reveal..at times I hate the word LOVE and hate it even when somebody says it ..do they realli mean what they say or juz saying it for the sake of confessing in words? Love is sacred..a feeling that God gives us to use it wisely..I can love everybody but to love that someone special..I have to be very very careful..too much love given but not appreciated..instead gets you hurt and tear up..that is forsaken love..tomorrow's a day to commemorate love to their partners..my love? I dedicate my first ever love and till now the love grew each day, is my love for Allah..how much I desire since young to be with HIM..been enjoying the love HE gives to me all my life..appreciating each little things HE kurniakan pada me..only HIM knows who I am,what I am, inside out..Only HIM will be by my side in good and bad times, comforting me each time through HIS holy book, Quran..only HIM has the answer to any queries I can ever think of..only HIM..can give me the happiness that I want in my life..nobody..can be of comparison to Allah..HE is the Ultimate One..that each of us Muslims, should look up to and dedicate our life and love for..coz HE has never forsaken HIS love towards HIS creations..though HIS love is equal to all, I dun mind sharing this love with every humans on Earth for I know...that means, loving each other does good & is a blessing too,from HIM..
I'd like to share this song to you-know-who..and to those who remembered the movie - My Best Fren's Wedding..i love this song..and its the song that shall stay here for long..take care..have a nice day ahead..it's TGIF btw.. *smiles*
Love..Life..Very Special..
