I had a good sleep after eating my medication..Doc says I've got inflammation (correct spelling?)..had to take all the strong medicines that makes me drowsy...now I'm having a bit of a headache..without me realising its been 5 days since Ramadhan had started...I had a dream..something that made me excited and sad too..Soon in less than a year from now, I shall be enlisted in..I shall be on my way to Tekong Island for BMT before being a Combat Specialist..the island most guys are worried of and I'm eager to go to..FYI, I am a scholar under SAF scholarship..and right after graduation I'll be working with them..for a total of 14 years..It is my decision to do so..to be away with my family..to be away with those who had hurt me in my life..people say..kalau nak bawa diri tu,bawa lah jauh2 so i decided to be with SAF..not too far but long enuff to create the distance between...not because of that..I also have passion for jungle life so i dun see SAF as a torture organisation but an organisation equivalent to OBS but more strategic n tougher..back to my dreams.. I dreamt that i was going to be enlisted soon n was spending my last moments with family members before booking in..hell, on the way to CMPB, i realised i forgot to pack my charger..went home to get charger n some stuffs, then on the road realised i forgot to take the charger from my table *so forgetful rite* then i begged my uncle to a nearby shop to get a new charger..and then i woke up..what a stupid dream to me..*giggles* guess its a sign that i must pack my charger now..*giggles* i intended to pack my stuffs for good before I leave home..have to entrust some precious ones to a trusted person...goodnesss the eagerness to go is there but the sadness is i have to leave my beloved frens behind..*sobs*
blog-hopped and saw Hana's fotopages account..gosh she looked gorgeous! there u go,gerl, getting married soon..i'm sure it's gonna be a great heart-thumping now..congrats in advance! Seeing this..makes me rewind back those times..i did blogged before about my frens..can't help but bloggin it again..my own frenz..married or engaged by now..some even had their first child..who knows second one coming soon..not being jealous but felt happy that they found happiness in their lives..just wondering if I am missing what they had..is it good to be married now? I guess not for me..coz there's a lot more to learn in life..but the feeling in me..the curiosity wanting to know how it felt to be somebody's wife..makes me wanna go n find the ONE..but how? that I have to discover on my own..no such theory on earth can help me..only HE knows who..*sigh* saw my best fren from high school with a baby girl..happy for her..Su..how I wish we can still chat till late nites..but I have to come into terms that u r married and with a child now..seriusly..call me sentimental but I cried when i knew she's gonna be engaged n cried more when she's married..goodness..ok better stop..have a great fasting day peeps...
Yaa Allah! Jadikanlah Aku Diantara Orang-Orang Yang Memohon Ampunan, Dan Jadikanlah Aku Sebagai Hamba-Mu Yang Sholeh Dan Setia Serta Jadikanlah Aku Diantara Auliya'-Mu Yang Dekat Disisi-Mu, Dengan Kelembutan-Mu, Wahai Dzat Yang Maha Pengasih Di Antara Semua Pengasih.
