Am done with my research article on RADIUS server for wireless network security..gosh..until the last minute did I realise the typical server I chose was the wrong one and I kinda like Cisco's one.Darn I realised it barely 24hrs before I had to produce it to my supervisor..I decided to stick to what I had chosen earlier..with hopes it's acceptible & function well. God save me! Then I still have a string of activities going on..on one hand I hate being busy but another..its a healthy thing to keep me away from thinking about him..I mean about the sorrowness things have been going between us..I dun wanna sit & fret about it..and be like what I used to be when I'm in bad shape in love..I confided in Sham..he's the only one who understands me a lot..not all of my gfs ever understand me much..maybe becoz we've known each other that close so we can actually feel what the other party's feeling is..Sham didn't want to see me fail..he didn't want me to jeopardize my education where I am at the peak of my dreams..he said he can see the potential I can have in life and didn't want me to waste it over sumtink that its not confirmed mine..I sat..and I thought..I got angry coz how dare he told me things like these but when I think harder..the inner me..I decided to change..as in I set my feelings aside and prioritize what I think is best for my future..and here it is..to me..if the person we love most is ours, Allah will not be cruel to let us apart for long..if he's not meant to be mine..he'll never even thought of me even for a second...Masyallah..sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui..I juz dun noe what are we or where do I stand anymore..I didn't give up but I'll walk away if the love..the care and the concern I had, is not needed anymore..will walk away with a very heavy heart..*sighs* sad to say but have to swallow..
Juz done with cleaning up my room..i wanna destress so I changed the position of my bed..tonite I shall sleep with my Stitch...I nid a hug..a warm one..but I lost it..where's my Dunlop pillow..it's missing..gone..with the wind..aniway..busy as I can be..I still have time to spend with frenz & family..left 5 more months or so..better make use of it..I shall spend quality time with those close to my heart..how I wish we can do dat..but it's ok..I take it as fate..fate meets us,fate decides who'll stay in our hearts..Seen lotsa activities going on for Valentine's Day..it'll juz be another day pass by for me..I had a few invitations out as dates but sorry..I may be single & unmarried but not available..furthermore I am busy..16th & 18th Feb is my D-Day..Judgement Day...whatever day it may be..time is running short..I am burning myself out..eyes turning like Giant Panda..overworked,that is..but it keeps my mind off somethings..so no difference..I've cut down on some sinful stuffs..been eating more vegetables..
Detoxing - consuming vegetables & fruits two days in a row..wonder if I can ever do that..*wonders* I tink I nid it..I will go on vegetarian mode..on term break I'll go for my daily jogs..this time for REAL..Soon..I think I'll have a haircut..to destress again..goodbye my lovely hair locks..unless I changed my mind last min..but unlikely..sooner or later it'll have to go short..what else to say..hmm..my bro,Iwan, was jumping mad around the house, his favourite idol, Chad Muska is in town..yes, you've got it rite..dat chap from States, who made skateboarding famous, is here on transit for his skatevids..tomorrow my bro will mit him n ask for autographs..*sighs* he begged me to lend my cammy to him..no way...I'll never trust my cammy on other's hands..ever..it's mine..MY PRECIOUS..lol..sounds like Gollum..In the day while I was chilling out during break time with the guys,we talked about high school days & gangsterism..each of them sharing their own stories of their schoolkids trying to act tough..we laughed thinking of those days,as though we're so old! Then I told them about my other side of relatives..they were dumbfounded..me, having the BLACK & the WHITE as one of the high end member of the SS..haha..none will believe..too bad my beloved cuzzin bro, Abg Nini...is in prison now..not for fights but his stupidity for skipping urine tests..nevertheless at times..I hate to see his so called "kiddies" around in Yishun..they disgust me..I knew they wanted to get near me but they can't...practically coz Abg Nini is watching over their backs..I'm the untouchable One..hehe ni baru Anak Metro..bukan mcm kat Suria..kentalanz..buat aku ketawa jek..tk realistic..tu sume budak2 taik..lol..if real one..come one-to-one fight! ehehe..not sit talk2..nowadays the kiddies love to stare2 for nuhting then fight in words..hands not skilled..lol..thats wat the guys & me were discussing..when we are stressed up..we talked practically nuhting but crap..so there you go..my crappy minds..
